Splurge

[Verse]

If I could tell you how I really felt, well I really probably wouldn't

At the bottom of the bucket, got and bought some shit I shouldn't

And now I'm feeling crooked and my money is spent

Saved up for happiness but I was short by a cent

So I splurged, I couldn't find the words to express

Running circles in my mind till that shit was out of breath

And I just want to feel content but I won't

Cause all this pressure got me tight by the throat

It's just another long night, got home and laughed

Cause driving home going ninety almost crashed

At least someone's got my back, I like to think that it's my father looking down

Pardon my stupidity, I'll come around

And find my way up, back up on my feet, maybe catch peace

Get a little bit of sleep

Cause in these troubled times we all looking for some solace

Mama's getting worried, I'ma be fine, I promise

It's hard to keep that hope when you staring at reality

Cause what's real is working nights for your salary

That rough shit in free time gets me thinking

No wonder everybody smoking herb and drinking

When winter comes I'll fold up freeze with the cold

Those dark months in the state are getting old

Maintaining my hope with a focus on the real

Put everything in music so don't ask me how I feel

I used to want to grow up, and now I want to grow down

A fast life always ends in a slow down

And holding to the hope is the everyday struggle

Just want to break free from this everyday bubble

I dream a new life and some complex shit

I'm more than what you heard on my compact disc

Can't slip, gotta grip to what I truly desire

But trying to finding happiness is making me tired

[Outro]

So I tell it like it is

I'm just a kid

I don't want to end up the way that you did

I got some bigger dreams that a sleep can't give

I'd rather have a smile than a big mansion

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