This Is Me

[Verse]

Last week I had a thought, I'm 20 years

That's old enough to start imagining and plenty fears

Where will I go? 'Cause I don't fit in here with any peers

Know there's more to life than smokin' weed and drinkin' many beers

And partyin', but what else to do

When the allure of the fame isn't helping you

Wish I could tell Jay-Z I see myself in you

I started with a dream and now I'm tryna be wealthy too

But it's tough when you're balancin' it all

And walkin' down a tight rope, your balance 'bout to fall

The labels keep tellin' me I'm talented and all

But I need another Candy Girl to really have it all

I'm hungrier than ever for a check

And plus my situation's not at all what you'd expect

I work my ass off, I'm always stickin' out my neck

'Cause they say the real currency ain't cash, but respect

But if you have one without the other

That means that you're a stupid motherfucker

I hate bein' broke, but havin' all the fame

And not havin' to deal and have to be the blame

I wanna win bread and bring it home, so after all we can live right

And give half of it to mom just to get right

And just to prove to her, I know she wasn't psycho

For always supportin' this dream, she was right though

But it's tough when life's as stormy as the weather

And her health isn't gettin' any better

And everyday's a struggle, the most recent trouble was her job

She called me cryin', told me she was laid off, God

But she told me, keep my spirits up high

She workin', I'll just keep on pushin', aimin' for the sky

And people wonder why I spend everyday high

'Cause my life isn't how it's supposed to be, but I try

Keep feelin' that I'm livin' life wrong

But then I stop trippin' as soon as I hit the bong

I go out to the club, pretend my problems all gone

I see chicks at my shows, know the words to my songs

My new girl told me "'G', please promise me

If we gon' be together, you gon' have to give me honesty"

And honestly I'm tryin', baby, listen

But it's bitches everyday that see your spot is where they wanna be

I'm tryna do the best that I can for you

I feel that you deserve that and I care for you

'Cause while a groupie might love you when you're big

Soon as the fame goes, they ain't there for you, real

A rappers girlfriend, bad spot for a wife

And this is just to give a snap shot of my life

For all you haters gossipin' and speakin' all freely

Feelin' like you know me 'cause you listen to my CD

Because I'm in the limelight, you can go and start

A bunch of fuckin' rumors, shit is rippin' me apart

On one hand, I don't give a shit, the other one, I'm sick of it

This is just to tell you what the business is, this is it

This is it, yea I'm sick of it

See my biggest problem is that I give a shit

If I ain't care I swear I'd probably be fine

But instead, this shit is killin' my mind

[Outro]

Damn

And that's real

This is me