Undefeated

I've been at odds with a restless soul

I've felt the pain when I lost control

I said the words but could not explain

The hurt fades but the scars remain

Got myself into situations

Ignored the threats and the ministrations

Guilt choked by my last breath

I’ve scared myself to death

So take my tears

Take all my fucking pain

I hope you're entertained

I fell prey to my own theatrics

Been diagnosed by the psychiatrics

Mistakes that I have made

I've left myself betrayed

I've lied to those I loved

I'd medicate but there's never enough

No tears for the lives I've wrecked

I've lost my self respect

So take my tears

Take all my fucking pain

I hope you're entertained

And now I'm reaching back

And I'm trying to make things right

And through my past I've gained a deeper sight

I'm less than proud of what I've done

But I know I've got to change

Somehow I know I’ve only just begun

Begun to change

It’s all on me

There's no one else to blame

But I'm still caught up in this game

I've been at odds with a restless soul

I've felt the pain when I lost control

I said the words but could not explain

So take my tears

Take all my fucking pain

I hope you're entertained