Royal Blue Walls

14, I told myself that
At the turn of the decade, I'd call it quits
And he sat pretty, at the bottom of the pool
With the belt in his hand

16, I told myself that
If we wanna keep it off, we've gotta get our act together
So I watched him sink to the floor
So I wouldn't have to do it myself

Tore off my mouth, I prayed the birds sang my name
If they ever get up, they'll sell me short, throw me away
As she told me, "The water here's just fine"
But I woke up in your outfit and my life's still the same

The guy next door with flags in his garage
Said he's not worth the harm, but you still got his number
He wishes I was gone and you still let him run
God forbid I get a little scared

The guy next door, he likes to shoot for fun
And they all love him for it
And on the TV he sits down and watches
When they say I'm a scary girl

Tore off my mouth, I prayed the birds sang my name
If they ever get up, they'll sell me short, throw me away
As she told me, "The water here's just fine"
But I woke up in your outfit and my life's still the same
Woke up in your outfit and my life's still the same

I'm no stranger to the sink or the razor
Don't stop, watch it fall
The hair on my legs and my arms
The hair on my legs and my arms
The hair on my legs and my arms

Woke up, dented my face, hoped the best again
Anything to stay away from him
Said I dreamt of something last night
Road run, love to use, play me for a fool
And I deal my own cards now
But somehow I'm still never satisfied, satisfied, satisfied

I'm a no-good liar
But I'll black out for a week
Burn a hole in my hand
All alone, all alone, all alone

I'm a no-good liar
'Til he says he's proud of me
And I die where I stand
Tell my mother I'm not coming home