Left Behind (feat. Struggle)

I can't shake these memories
These memories
Keep haunting me, keep haunting me, keep haunting me

All alone flipping through my phone staring at pictures
Thinkin' how I can't drop an album without sayin' I miss ya
Wish that I could sit with you
Tell you all the shit I been livin' through
Through it all I only regret the shit that I didn't do
Lord knows I been living so wrong, for so long, life goes on
I know it's a rollercoaster just hold on
Tell you what don't fuck around let me tell you something bout
Not telling your brother you loved him before they gunned him down
Lord knows that I can't cry because I'm out of tears
Dehydrated from smokin', drinking and poppin' pills
And everybody's tellin' me to calm down and chill
And that's real but really you don't know how I feel

I don't laugh like I use to
I don't cry no more
I get high if I need to
Save my soul please Lord
Walking through these empty rooms trapped inside my mind
These memories are all I see from a life I left behind

I'm walking down this long hall
I don't see a end in sight
Even when I squint my eyes
Not a bit of light
I know I left it on though before I left home
Shoulda stopped a while ago for some reason I kept on
And I've been slept on walked over and stepped on
Drug through mud a dozen times still I crept on
The door behind me closed again I felt the breeze
Am I inside a dream or are these my memories
I know I ain't drunk on misery I have a purpose
The demons I battle daily will soon scratch the surface
That life I left behind you won't find it, no place
With no smile I take another shot of crown, no chase

I don't laugh like I use to
I don't cry no more
I get high if I need to
Save my soul please Lord
Walking through these empty rooms trapped inside my mind
These memories are all I see from a life I left behind

Struggle
It's been a struggle not to hustle
Can't afford more trouble
Trying not to fumble
Cuddle with the snakes
Venom dripping off my denim and they
wonder why I'm living how I'm living
To get how I've been living gotta live inside my prison
Between walls bars on the window gaurds with keys missing
Listen to the voices
Signs sayin' danger
Attack from all angles by the angels with their anger
The web that I have tangled wove a rope around my throat
So now I'm hanging from the rafters
children's laughter now is absent from my castle
I'ma bastard and they slander me online
with all their banter and their chatter
Showered by the clappin' of the crowd and that's what matters

I don't laugh like I use to
I don't cry no more
I get high if I need to
Save my soul please Lord
Walking through these empty rooms trapped inside my mind
These memories are all I see from a life I left behind