Nothing Left At All

I stayed up late patiently waitin'
Wishin' you could call
Dreamin' of memories lost in time
Knowin' they're all gone
So I take this bottle and drown my sorrows
And throw it against the wall
The higher you fly
The harder you fall
'Til there's nothin' left at all
Four in the morning, I cannot sleep
I am depressed, sitting up in my bed
My demons are roarin', they're botherin' me
I'm sitting here with a gun to my head
Finger on trigger, what if I squeezed?
Does that mean that my problems will leave?
And get rid of what's botherin' me?
Does that mean that I'm finally free?
I think of my daughter, I think of my wife
I think of my brothers, I think of my life
Can't leave 'em with bad news
My life is a crap-shoot
I'm just shakin' the dice
Had a dream last night (had a dream last night)
I could hear you say (I could hear you say)
Son, just be strong (son, just be strong)
You gon' be okay (you gon' be okay)
Tell the truth, I don't feel that way
I still feel fucked up to this day
Even when I'm high, I just sit and cry
And I wonder why I still feel this pain
I wish Heaven wasn't so far away
I wish I could visit just for a day
I still had so much left to say
Bow our heads, let us pray
Stayed up late patiently waitin'
Wishin' you could call
Dreamin' of memories lost in time
Knowing they're all gone
So I take this bottle and drown my sorrows
And throw it against the wall
The higher you fly
The harder you fall
'Til there's nothin' left at all
I feel like my past won't allow me to grow
Feel like this liquor is drownin' my soul
Why am I spiraling out of control?
I cannot get myself out of this hole
I keep tryin', I keep crawlin'
The sound of silence, I hear it callin'
I was flyin', now I'm fallin'
My health declinin', I'm an alcoholic
There's no one else, it's just myself
Alone in thought, I stand and dwell
I'm the go-to guy, so who do I
Go to when I need some help?
No one gives a fuck about me, I'm on my own
If misery loves company then why am I alone?
I pour another drink just to get in my zone
I swear that I'ma change, but I know that I won't
Let me face the facts (face the facts)
Wish I could take it back (take it back)
Wish I could fade to black (fade to black)
Wish I could change the past (wish I could change the past)
But in my mind I wish that I could rewind
Press pause, and live my life inside a moment of time
But I can't
Stayed up late patiently waitin'
Wishin' you could call
Dreamin' of memories lost in time
Knowin' they're all gone
So I take this bottle and drown my sorrows
And throw it against the wall
The higher you fly
The harder you fall
'Til there's nothin' left at all
'Til there's nothin' left at