Hold Tight

I can't sleep at night plus my chest feels tight

Things seem to be the worst theyve ever been in my life

Im slipping in the darkness and im searching for light

Plus the agents of satan try to silence my mic

Its the demons within nowadays that i fight

I took a few steps back, will i ever reach the heights

It'll be nice to have kids and a wife

But i tend to do whats wrong even though i know whats right

Got a DWI, i ??

Contemplating sellin that stuff they burn in blunts and pipes

Unholy thoughts cause me stress and strife

Although im tired im determined to fight the good fight

I exist in a world thats more than black and white

Its like that space and time where day transitions the night

Hear if you master yourself you get general stripes

Just dont tempt the wolves because the beats bites

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I feel im at a crossroad, i ask myself whats next

I got a monkey on my back and hes addicted to sex

Things were simple as a child, but now theyre so complex

Should i, sell my soul to collect fatter checks?

I know how to play my cards but im playin with fixed decks

When i want to ease my mind i read ancient texts

Tryna occupy my time with different projects

And when all else fails the deuce-deuce are backs

Where im at now in my journey, trust i didn't expect

When theres a flaw in your design you blame the architect

Had the best intention, but wasn't living correct

And day by day tighten the noose around my neck

Look at myself in the mirror and get vexed

And i constantly ponder which course to select

Now my sorrows are (?) and get wet

But i won't go out like the gunman at virginia tech

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