The Darkest Day

Don’t recognize myself today

Talk in circles in the greyest grey

And all the thoughts live in a maze

Up here, where I belong

I trundle cross the harsh terrain

The darkest thoughts you’ll entertain

A force that I cannot sustain

I’m here, but something’s wrong

The darkest day

The longest night

I should evolve but still I fight

On the run

In a state of flight

I’m calming down

My intent is to be free

What keeps me warm are memories

Now they’re closing in on me

Things should have changed by now

I’ll be younger in 50 years

Trying to find what panic fears

Phobos and Deimos interfered

And change was everything

When you looked up

The stars all fell

It was hard for me to tell

It’s another day on Mars as well

This quiet is deafening

The darkest day

The longest night

I should evolve but still I fight

On the run

In a state of flight

I’m calming down

My intent is to be free

What keeps me warm are memories

Now they’re closing in on me

Things should have changed by now

I felt myself disintegrate

Figured it out but much too late

Took all that I loved that day

And trashed the rest of it

I happily detached the past

But equilibrium won’t last

In a capsule of poison gas

This solitude is desolate

The darkest day

The longest night

I should evolve but still I fight

On the run

In a state of flight

I’m calming down

My intent is to be free

What keeps me warm are memories

Now they’re closing in on me

Things should have changed by now