Anatomy 1:5

You said you'd be here forever

And that it was us against the world

And I had nothing like that ever

And they said that you were just a girl

But when I was broken and I gave up

You made me keep pursuing

You said no one could tell it like you

And you made me prove it to 'em

And now I'm out ripping the world apart

But when I come back home

You're no longer there

Yet I don't feel alone

Your ghost is still here

Your memory's still here

And I'm contemplating things that you would say if you were near

And it helps me through them times, you know that I don't see so clear

And the barrel of my gun is pressed up against my ear

My cousin sees me with a pistol, says I'm jeopardizing my career

You use the word career like I give a fuck that I'm here

In fact you chose to speak like I'm still willing to hear

But I feel like I should kill myself after I cut off my ear

Can you put all that together

I feel like love don't live here anymore

I don't smile when I see my nephew and he asks me what for

I see his face it looks like mine

In a few years he'll be nine

At that age I was put into handcuffs for the first time

So I don't wanna touch his skin

In fact I wanna stay far away don't wanna rub off on him

Don't wanna rub off on anyone so I'm in this room alone

Wanting to saw into my wrist until the blade hits the bone