I Wonder

[Verse 1: Hassan Chop]

Thats right—I got problems and personal issues

Stories that'll make your eyes tear and wet tissue

It's true, I'm Madd like the Rapper

I'm so upset, I got to put it up in my rap before I snapper

After the things I've seen from Atlanta to Queens

To the mean streets of Brooklyn when I was a teen

Back and forth to the Islands, scream when I left

But adapted, and still my dreams haven't left

I only hung with the crack kids, we not the best

Me and the roughest ruffnecks went chest to chest

Now my best friend's locked up north, I won't rest

'Til I let him live his dream through me and I confess

That even though both our hearts was dark, his was darker

Best believe when shit got spark, he was the sparker

And when the block got hot, he was the fire starter

And if I had beef, my nigga Raja was a martyr

[Chorus: Hassan Chop]

I wonder how certain people come in my life

I wonder why'd I get in so many fights

I wonder why sometimes things just don't go right

Why I got to live this life? Hey, hey

I wonder how certain people come in my life

I wonder why'd I get in so many fights

I wonder... why I got to live this life? Hey, hey

[Verse 2: Hassan Chop]

Yo, you one of the most important people in my life

They called you Dice but I called you cousin, we was buggin'

'Cause I figured that we both had something in common

You loved to chat reggae music and I loved rhymin'

But still they ain't call you Dice for nothin'

I seen you shoot with the williest cats and leave them with nothing

Somethin' must have pleased that bluffer in you

To make you wanna take dough from those tougher than you

Throughout school we made money together

When you was on the floor shootin', I was the side better

And, yo, we cleaned out them cats and took the scraps

But you wasn't a ruff cat and cats knew that

I knew eventually them thugs would try to hurt you

If I was there, I'd never let nobody hurt you, it's hurtful

I knew they wouldn't let you take the money and run

That's why I shoulda came when you told me to come

[Chorus: Hassan Chop]

I wonder how certain people come in my life

I wonder why'd I get in so many fights

I wonder... why I got to live this life? Hey, hey

I wonder how certain things don't go right

I wonder why'd I get in so many fights

I wonder... why I got to live this life? Hey, hey

[Verse 3: Hassan Chop]

Yo, it was June 6th '96 graduation night

Made it through the school shish shootin' dice, gettin' in fights

I even sparked a riot, 'til the school got quiet

And dismiss, just got tired of usin' my fists

We had some shit like knife pipes, bottles and sticks

Can't forget them 380s, nines and 22s

Best believe, many dues was paid in my crew

We made a name for ourself, boy, I've seen some drama

Seems my momma never dreamed she'd go through so much trauma

Comma, pause you ask about cops and laws

Well, that shit don't exist when you black and poor

So we broke 'em, but at that night, my heart got broken

Chokin' on the weed smoke, drinkin' rum and gettin' open

Not to mention, never a big drinker, I'm a thinker

But I'm thinkin', hey, this my night, pass me more liquor

Fight breaks out, I'm just too nice to get in it

But my brother got stabbed and I missed it

[Break: Hassan Chop]

Word up, it's crazy

Why I gotta live this life? (Wonder) Hey, hey

[Chorus: Hassan Chop]

I wonder why sometimes things just don't go right

I wonder why certain people come in my life

I wonder, yeah., why I got to live this life? Hey, hey

I wonder why sometimes things just don't go right

I wonder why'd I get in so many fights

I wonder, hey, why I got to live this life? Hey, hey

I wonder why sometimes things just don't go right

I wonder why I got to live this life

I wonder why I got to live this life? Ay, ay, uh, ay

That's right, your life