i don't even like granola bars that much

It's like there's too many days and too few hours
It's like i'm screaming and crying but it all stays silent
It's like I'm hanging off of a cliff stagnant
And it's been years
My hands are sweating Iim losing my grip
I slip i fall but it's better to hit the ground
Because at least now it feels different
At least now I'm not hanging
I reach but I can't find exactly where to go next
I've blown my phones storage
Applying to almost every job
The only calls back are scams and green grass
But it's spray painted on
It's interesting to say the least
Sometimes I feel like it's worth it
Sometimes I feel nothing at all
Sometimes something's felt
And I can't discern when it'll go
I hobble around day to day hoping to get better
I'll do my stretches
I'll do the things they tell me to do
But the reasons i do them are far and few
My pockets are empty
Two of my three reasons are tired
My heart it feels hopeful
While my soul wants to retire
The bags under my eyes are so over weight
American airlines would charge
An extra two hundred and fifty and change
I reach in my pockets the last bit i have left
To go somewhere stupid
I just don't quite know i just can't quite tell
I want to be better i want to fit the bill
But i'm not enough i never will be
I keep trying to sing i keep ending up screaming
I'm sorry for these songs
I hope somebody finds them and it helps
I hope somebody can know they aren't the only one to hurt
They aren't the only one that's cried
Screaming bawling into their pillow at night
So hard you can feel your heartbeat in between your ears
So distraught you're debating taking those pills
So distraught you mightve taken them
But you woke up in the morning alive
You went to work and from then on you've tried
You aren't the only one who's felt nothing
I'm sorry if this hits you somewhere deep inside
I'm sorry if you're anything like me
I'm sorry
I'm trying
It gets better
Please keep trying