i'll be happy when

I'll be happy when this lonely city feels like mine
Maybe when I have a license and a car to drive
I can take a trip to nowhere on the 405
Just to feel alive

I'll be happy when I finally can find real friends
Who all like me as I am, and they don't all pretend
That I'm more than just a temporary means to an end
Thinking maybe then that I'll be fine

But what if it's all too late?
What if I'm bound to break?
'Cause what if there's nowhere to escape?
Once the high starts to fade, fade
I start to fade, fade
I start to fade

I'll be happy when my smiles aren't in self-defense
When I finally belong outside convenience
And they ask me how I'm doing, and they really care for real
I fear, I fear, I fear that life's not mine

And it's all too late
What if I'm bound to break?
'Cause what if there's nowhere to escape?
Once the high starts to fade, fade
I start to fade, fade
I wanna fade, fade
I start to fade, fade
I wanna fade

Will I be a buzzkill forever?
Be a buzzkill forever?
Be a buzzkill forever?
Be a buzzkill forever?
Be a buzzkill forever?
Be a buzzkill forever?
Be a buzzkill forever?
Be a buzzkill forever?