I Still Don't Cry

I still don't cry enough
I still be tryin' be tough
I still tell lies too much to the mirror
I don't look me in the eyes enough
I still fear dying too much
I still don't cry
I still don't cry
Lord knows I try
I still don't cry

I just wanna be better sometimes
Know it sounds simple, I know
Waitin' on me to change, I get fed up
Make better decisions, I grow
Weighed down by the shit that I know
Paralyzed by the shit that I feel
Propelled by the shit that I fear
This ain't how to be livin', my dear
Give me my beer, give me my crutch
Give mе excuse, shitty, my luck
Give mе my pain, need it real close
Hide in broad day, I'm a real pro
Whisper my truth, keep it real low
Hard to heal from back on your heels
Pay the cost due of every tear untold

I still don't cry enough
I still be tryin' be tough
I still tell lies too much to the mirror
I don't look me in the eyes enough
I still fear dying too much
I still don't cry
I still don't cry (I still don't, I still don't cry)
Lord knows I try
I still don't cry

I still don't—
I don't know why
I still don't cry
I still don't—