The Happy

Yeah
Compulsively workin'
Google bars, my name known to be searched in
Waitin' on the day that people who don't know me besmirch it
Always movin' like I'm fearing that a frozen me's lurkin'
Lonely the perks is, could be greed, chose to be purpose
I wake up to stress
Like every day is an exam and I can't make up the test
By the time my girl figure out which makeup is best
I've questioned my existence, tried to meditate it to rest

Yeah
I win some, lose some
My skin done bruised some
They try and break it daily
I hit that snooze button 'cause my awake is scary
I fear it every moment, though encounter hatred rarely
Yeah, I know it's under the surface
Like waves of panic swelling up in my chest that I surf in
Found my home court advantage, still don't know where my turf is
Maybe the answer's stop searching

I know there's a place and time
Who gon' make some time for me though?
Yeah, yeah, gotta wait in line
But I'm in my prime, you see, so
Oh baby, don't you wait too long
I'm gettin' my impatience on
Can't keep singing you the same two songs
I deserve it
When the happy gon' come for me?
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, look

The second verse usually where the truth come clearest
In the middle of labor's when the fruits come nearest
Hold on, I don't gotta prove something here
It's a lotta them and only one me
See, keeping your integrity a thankless path
Being a celebrity is dangerous, trash
I chose the long game on purpose
So I ain't have to chase just that
It's workin' out for me

Yeah
I win some, lose some
My skin done bruised some
Relief, it be escapin'
I hit that snooze button
I might just have to fake it
It's a losing game whenever me and presence racin'
Yeah
That makes sense don't it?
My heart, my mind actin' like they still gotta make rent
Won't it stop
When will I know I've got
Enough to fall into the arms of the happy?
You know or not?

I know there's a place and time
Who gon' make some time for me though?
Yeah, yeah, gotta wait in line
But I'm in my prime, you see, so
Oh baby, don't you wait too long
I'm gettin' my impatience on
Can't keep singing you the same two songs
I deserve it
When the happy gon' come for me?