Greatness

I didn't go to the mountains to appreciate their beauty

Or to escape the traps of normal everyday life

Or to see how tall they were

Nah

I went to see how tall I was

I went to see how strong I was

I want to see how wise I was

Could there be a better version of myself lying under the costume of my social personality?

Yes, yes, yes, I'm here now

Solid

Finding truth in all the places people forget to look!

So knowing this

The question is

Do I still care about what I'm doing?

Am I living right?

I just want to enjoy this shit while it lasts

But enjoy is a funny word

I get enjoyment when I eat a chocolate chip cookie

That flavor of enjoyment takes only a moment to procure

And disappears just as quickly

But me?

I prefer a different type of enjoyment

I like the type of enjoyment that starts off as an idea in my mind

It doesn't even exist yet

I like the type of enjoyment that I have to suffer

For a very long time in order to procure!

I like the type of enjoyment

That I have to become somebody else altogether

Just to taste it!

Because the person I am right now!

Ain't fucking good enough to get it done!

I like the type of enjoyment that takes years!

And they're shaky, uncertain, scary years

Because I'm not even sure it's gonna work out

I might fail in front of everyone

I might die in the process

I might be humiliated!

This is the secret ingredient

In this type of enjoyment's recipe!

The risk of absolute unequivocal failure!

I might not make it

Whoa!

Fuck!

I try anyways-

Courageously

And what's my reward?

Each day a voice in my mind

Attempts to convince me

I'm not good enough

Waste of my time

Another stronger, deeper part of my mind

Tells this little voice to shut the fuck up

I will become good enough

Like the snake that sheds its skin

I will become a new me

That's the whole point

And one day, if I'm lucky enough

And if the weather permits

I will succeed and taste this type of enjoyment

And let me tell you right now

It will taste the hell of a lot better

Than a chocolate chip cookie!

Woo!

Get up there, Mike!

Just atop of the world, baby

Just atop the world!

Its taste will linger in my soul for weeks

And maybe even years

It will taste so good

That when the bliss of my achievement

Finally does subside

I will fall into a deep withdrawal like depression

And that's how I'll know

That shit was real!

You got no idea what this kind of life is like

Unless you're one of the very, very, very few people

Who has the courage;

Like Coach Chad told me

To not listen to the little voice in your head

That is trying to convince you

To not do something great