Looking In...

[Intro]

Goddamn Pops, that's cold-blooded

Can't believe you left me and moms alone

I'm goin through struggles in life

I could use your guidance right now nigga but you gone

[Verse]

I'm your son, a part of you, your flesh and blood, marrow and bone

How the fuck could you leave me alone?

Fuck the finances, teach me how to shave or how to behave

When some white niggas try to treat me like a slave

It's civilized lessons that I lack

You doubted you could keep me intact

With the proper information so I wouldn't be strapped, but I am now

Environment is ran down, I no longer stand proud

Dreams are in the damn clouds

And I'm here on the ground, with the fo'-pound

About to kick this nigga's do' down and bust fo' rounds

End up in jail, oh shit this is real

'Bout to slip, put down my gun and run

Back into my mother's arms, though I lack a father's charms

I realize I gotta stay alive and stand strong

God help me, I'm not educated or wealthy

Niggas outside is stealthy, and wanna melt me

Oh dear sweet Jesus, 'bout to fall to pieces

From my eye a tear releases, caught up in the creases

In my face for the years of slavery I wish to erase

And all the commonalities I wish to displace

Baby mommy baby daddy, it's addin to the death tally

Of the black family, if I find my wife I'mma marry

And carry out what they tried so hard to disrupt

And construct intelligent black minds

Workin with these hands of mine, my hours of labor

Will prove me to be a savior

And when I lie your little heads down at night

I envision through divine sight that your future is bright

As we rise above the plight, please don't be like your Grandpa

Stand tall, and it's pain like this that makes a grown man crawl

So I walk south 12 blocks and seen this kid playin catch with his pops

I couldn't help but watch, stopped

Copped a squat on a bench, though my face was drenched

Wiped the sweat off of my grill and chilled

Just notice as they build, so focused as they will

One another to a great day; I had to leave right away

I couldn't keep watchin somethin that I'll never have

Cause all I wanted was my dad {*echoes*}