Memories (I Don't Have)

Sometimes I think about why you left
Was it my fault? Was it easy?
Sometimes I block it all, better yet
I disconnect from all feelings

All my life I thought that actions speak louder than words
But I started thinking how different I'd be if I hurt you, tell me

Don't deal in lies
Don't play with truth
Staying fine when the odds are stacked against you
Oh your advice of falling in love

I hear you telling me
Whatever happens, I have your back
But the memories I don't have

I told myself you took nothing away
But then all of your shame became weight on my shoulders
Convincing myself it would all be okay
Like having faith
Win a war without soldiers

All my life I thought that actions speak louder than words
But I started thinking how different I'd be if I hurt you, tell me

Don't deal in lies
Don't play with truth
Staying fine when the world's against you
Oh your advice of falling in love

Oh I hear you telling me
Whatever happens, oh I've got your back
But the memories I don't have
But the memories I don't have