The Human Condition

No faith, no faith, I lost it all

In a bet I made

With the devil himself

God was the dealer

That's what you get when you gamble with hell

I'm all in

When he's not out

Drinking the night away

Or under the sheets

With another dame, keeping him warm and safe

He's praying to god

That tomorrow might bring a prettier world

Without his name

Without his face

He's lifts the glass one last time

To suppress the grief

The regret, the guilt and the shame

Anything to quiet the violent screams of his sins

Hanging over his head

Keeping him from sleep

And he knows damn well

That cold steel between his teeth

Will not end a god damn thing

No hope, no strength

But just enough heart

To lift that last drink

Said my prayers and goodbyes

Counted my blessings

God take me tonight

All those times he fell so hard

Mother dried the tears

Father gave him a hand said

"Son, blood ain't nothin' to fear."

Fear?

Fear

Fear yourself

Not god

Well now he's all alone

A drunken old fool

Your washed up son

With nothing left to prove

Nothing left to lose

Just anger and rage bottled up inside

Nothing left of this broken down man

Besides a couple broken records and...

A familiar reflection

Welcome to the human condition

Where enough is never enough

So keeping fucking our heads

And our livers and hearts and weak women

Until we are under the dirt

All I see is red and grey

The shadows of my demons

Tracing every step I take

In july, 1990 a cretin was born

Who’s only purpose in life

Was to show the world

How ugly he was

And the meaning of self disgust

Yes I am a piece of shit

And I’ll never be proud of it