forthright peak

[Intro]

Haha, why do I bother?

Fuck, haha

Uh, this is a nervous laugh, um

Never thought it would come to this, um

It's just

It's disgusting, like

What the fuck? Oh God, no, no, haha

I'm jokin', bro, I swear to God, I swear to God

I so swear to God

Alright, alright

[Verse 1]

I'll start talkin' 'bout me

But if I do that a little, I'll be considered selfish

But if I don't speak at all, I'll be considered helpless, but fuck it

Before I go down, I'ma speak my truth before they shut it

I will never be seen as the gender that I am

Regardless if I try, I'll still pass as a man

If I told my therapist I'm havin' thoughts again

Then it will prove I don't deserve freedom yеt again

Can't pretend, if I'm way too honest, it bitеs back

I made friends, I'm still lonely as shit

If you don't get it, that's good, you livin' better than me

Nothin' ever sits right when you are on a blood spree

Most people joke about this so lightly when I'm fightin'

That's how I know they've never been in my place

Acceptin' fate, my talent is a waste

'Cause I'm givin' it away to the dead

You say that I deserve the world, but I never seem to get a inch of it

Don't follow my footsteps, I am a bad example

I couldn't handle all the fuckery that puts finger guns to my head

I had so many opportunities with different methods

I didn't take them 'cause my hope was still represented

This world is too fuckin' cruel, my death'll be a benefit

They would take the news, five minutes, and forget the shit

It's good to know I always have a motherfuckin' way out

[Interlude]

Go ahead, I'm waiting (Tick-tock, tick-tock, haha)

Kill yourself, you fucking bitch

[Verse 2]

Randos that could save me, I feel your fuckin' guilt

I wish I met me too, to save my fuckin' self

But instead, you knew me too late to help me carry some weight

I will barely be remembered as my true self

I affected all your lives, so I'm sorry

I'm doin' you a favor, so celebrate and take it as a waiver

The train is comin', the bullet's runnin', the blade is cuttin'

I am the "wannabe girl," it's really somethin'

I hope you'll save the next life that thinks about this after

Nevermind, it doesn't matter