The Checks

The urge is settling in

For another night on blue patrol

So let’s tear up your plans

For a gang of blue bags and a postcode

Cos I’ve been staring at this night for weeks

And I’ve been fearing half the time

But now I’m hearing people on the street

And I’m jealous they’re outside

Dawn falls and the birds are getting vocal

See blue people spread out wide

I’m on a losing streak that’s made me feel complete

And there are no new winners tonight

Someone laughs and says “alright, high roller”

“What we doing with our lives?”

At which point it’s best to run through the checks

And weigh up my state of mind

Check 1:

Am I giving you my life in a rush?

Is an idiot housemate of yours making my life tough?

Is the waltzer ride inside me starting to climb?

Check 4:

And are my back teeth back on the grind?

Have my sore eyes started to blush?

For a pirate DVD case covered in dust?

Have I half-forgotten the notion of time?

Have I invited everyone i know back to mine?

Or yours?

But do I, do I care?

I said do I, do I care?

Do i care, care

Care, care, care

Care, care, care, care

Care, care, care, care

Care?

Check 10:

Am I talking about the great divide?

Am I walking you through this tedious theory of mine?

Am I saying there are lovers of loss?

Am I saying there are others who aren’t like us?

Which side are you on?

Which side are you on?

Which side are you on?

Which side are you on?

Do you care, care

Care, care, care

Care, care, care, care

Care, care, care, care

Care?

Am I wishing I was lone at home with someone?

Have I got her say so?

Come inside me, come on

Am I better left alone for life with no-one?

Do I wake up for the hottest days of summer?

Check 17:

Do I know my way home?

Do I know who I am when I’m alone?

Am I capable of tenderness?

Check 20:

Am I capable of tenderness?

I’m running through the checks

Running through the checks

I’m running through the checks

I’m just running through the checks