New Years

When's it gonna change?
What's the point in making this when they just stay the same?
Writing things I've wrote before
Said that I would quit
But I don't think I'm sticking to it

My new years resolution was a weak one
Forgot that shit by Feb
I was gonna get shit done
But I had new shit in my head
It came 'round to March and
I was down and depressed
It was too much for a minute
Was not living at my best
I just stayed in bed for days, and
Shy ones came in April
Feeling like a fool now
I'm not looking forward
But when it gets warmer
Gonna feel a little better, I may
Now it's May

Oh my god, my birthday coming up
I'm turning 25
I hope that I see 25 more years alive
I wanna feel the best that I can feel and make the most of life
But May came around so fast
I can't believe five months went by
Almost half
Yeah it's summer soon, I'm happy as hell
And June is looking good, yeah I can tell
Well, I'm ready for it now
I'm outside the house, thank god
July came around, I was ungrateful and still frustrated

Oh, fail too much now
The seat won't even save me
August is amazing
Suntan all of my face again
This year we needed reason to smile, so
Went to Italy and did the anniversary, wow
Time went on and I remembered
Feeling like, holy fuck
Now it's September
What am I doing?
In fall, I'm feeling pain
There's only three more months til we gon' start again
Going through the year together
Through the year together
October now it's cold again
I don't feel like myself, oh god

November, I don't know the difference anymore
It's cold and I just wanna go back to the start
I know I'll feel much better there
I'm gonna make new plans and stick to them this time, I swear
What now? What's next?
I need to think about gifts
Christmas coming up
Oh shit, I ain't ready yet
No, no, no

You start the whole thing over
And we try a little harder next year