Estranged

Suspend your disbelief, a loss or lack of faith
In lustful gloom, this lurking ache

A chase that never stops, attachment reoccurs
The shallow ways I'll prove my worth

Was your composure compromised?
Was your dignity sacrificed?

Are you staring in mirrors all smoke, cloak and daggers?
Ten years on the run left me damaged and ragged
Each moment stark, marked with poignancy
I've grown tired of the city, and the city's gotten sick of me

Boring, endless catalogue of apologies
Shadow powers of recall, whatever brings you ease
Dealing in ignorance, a roll of the dice just to exercise conscience
An eternity to repent

Welcome doubt into your home, it's enough to stir the ghosts
Invite doubt into your bones, preempting that sting

I closed the door and kept the darkness in.