Merry Go Round

[Chorus]

I have tried in vain, never had success

So it seems my life is nothing but a mess

I have lost, my only friends

Now it seems I have to start again, merry go around

[Verse 1]

My life's been going around 'n' round since '95

Went from going somewhere to about to die

Went from calling my chick a chicken

'Cause she look like she got poultry around her thighs

To calling your piece a chicken 'cause she got no teeth

And she got crow feet, around her eyes

How hard are y'all? I got a heart the size of Arkansas

Count to five, these birds gon' hit the ground and they ain't from out the sky

Went from having an outta-this-world-flow, to doing a video doing the coon dance

To watching' my good friend Eminem winning' a moonman

I remember 'cause I was in New York with all of my boys to start shit

Letting 'em stay with me, long story short, they tore up my corporate apartment

Went from being a kid addicted to basketball

To being an ignorant nigga addicted to alcohol

Round and round we go is how this movie would end

Self-proclaimed King of my city, not really just truly the King of losing a friend

Who woulda thought this dude in the park who's true to his art would lose

Or win just by giving his thoughts and views

[Chorus]

I have tried in vain, never had success

So it seems my life is nothing but a mess

I have lost, my only friends

Now it seems I have to start again, merry go around

[Verse 2]

You would hear that Ryan's skilled, might even hear Ryan kills

You will never hear Ryan Stills, here to put the "i" in ill

My mind is still like a merry-go-round spill

Like leaving only guns to my kids when I'm killed, I got an iron will

Intellect of Zion, I done went too high on pills

To triumph, to hiding from bills, to buying buildings

Then I went from writing for Dre to wondering if my head was on straight

On the sidelines feeling forgot about, listening to "Forgot About Dre"

From there I went to about a bottle a day

Telling who we know "Get outta my face!"

Okay I know what Kino said about Dre

I look at Kino to this day like that was a stupid mistake

But if it wasn't for him doing that, what would I be doing today?

If it wasn't for Cashis saying that he gonna beat my ass

Then me and Em probably wouldn't be laughing 'bout us getting past it

If it wasn't for me being outcasted I woulda never been on the underground rapping with SLAUGHTERHOUSE!

[Chorus]

I have tried in vain, never had success

So it seems my life is nothing but a mess

I have lost, my only friends

Now it seems I have to start again, merry go around