Wicked Hands

[Verse 1]

It was a can of paint

With an ironic name

Black Magic shade

Over the fireplace

And you turned away

As Sufjan sang

Is there dignity in death

If there isn't any hope left?

But I know I tried to be

What I thought you needed me to be

But I was becomin' somethin' that would never be me

I heard the mating call

For everything that made us fall

Out of the promised land

With bags of contraband

[Chorus]

I'm stranded in the desert with my empty and wicked hands

Just tryin' to find my way before I'm lost

But I cannot keep livin' with the memory

Of all the heartbreak I swore that I forgot

[Verse 2]

And in the early light

I find my enemy lines

And I bend into the dream

That today I will make peace

With that box of things

That's still haunting me

So I take it to the trash

Throw it in and I don't look back

'Cause I know there's more to me

Than even I have seen

So I get up and keep on fightin' in spite of me

I hear the siren call

For everything that makes me fall

Far from the promised land

Lookin' for heroin

[Chorus]

And I wake up in the mornin' with my ugly and wicked hands

I just cannot bear the weight of all I've lost

'Cause I cannot keep doin' all the same things

And pretend like there will not be a cost

[Bridge]

But all this time, I thought it was a lost fight

To get back everything, I left behind my

Days of rage and shame

I still don't understand

[Outro]

God, help me hide my wicked hands

God, help me hide my wicked hands

God, help me hide my wicked hands

God, help me hide my wicked hands