Ruby Wand

Diagnosed with O-C-D today
Somebody take my metal away
I just dive into my skin, looking for proof I'm okay
It's the first time someone I slept with
Passed, half a decade since we spoke last
I can't stop searching for his name
As if I wouldn't do things the same

Magic hour burning by my side
I make the bed
It's somewhere to lie
Holding a ruby in my hand
One thing in my command
I need control

Just afloat, but treading all along