Hold My Breath

Intoxication, in need of some observation
Lost all of my motivation lately
My body's frozen, you dried up my oxytocin
Been sinking into the ocean, save me
'Cause I've been enabled and I've been unstable
Guess I should be able to be over it out on my own
Replaying the timeline and I know you're not mine
But once in a lifetime
You go crazy when you know, you know and I know if I-
I hold my breath
And play our movie in my head
It's almost like you never left
And you're still laying in my bed
But when the phone lights up, when the doorbell rings
When the whiskey hits I replay what you said
It's us or death
Swearing you'll come back but
I won't hold my breath
I won't hold my breath
I won't hold my-
Sense of security, my true lack of maturity
All my impurities against you
Anticipating the days of sitting and waiting
My eyes are completely vacant meant to-
See a new future, rip out the sutures
The places that you were in my body in my heart and soul
I retell the story, every time it bores me, in pieces you tore me
But I go back to you every night I lay down and I-
I hold my breath
And play our movie in my head
It's almost like you never left
And you're still laying in my bed
But when the phone lights up, when the doorbell rings
When the whiskey hits I replay what you said
It's us or death
Swearing you'll come back but
I won't hold my breath
I won't hold my breath
I won't hold my-
I won't hold my-
Intoxication, in need of some observation
Lost all of my motivation lately