Junie

Jenny wants what's best for me, and I don't ask why
I know better than to waste her time
Jenny says the problem is I don't even try
Every time she asks a question, I lie

And it's barely winter, but I've made up my mind
There is nothing else left to decide
Have you learned nothing from the pain in your side?
Are you holding out for dear life?

Radio signal couldn't find me on the roof
It only tells me bad news
Keep that in mind, say what I know to be true
I think I'm bad for you

And I really meant it this time
Leaving without saying goodbye
Moving with my grandma by the seaside
I want a whole 'nother life

I've tried a million times
Keeping you needless in the back of my mind
I've tried picking my fights
And checking your breathing through the end of the night

In a few years
When the ink dries, I will be here
Starting fires in the front yard
Through the sickness, I was the safeguard

But you fall too hard, I am wishing
Is it making sense? I can fix it
But it won't hurt you less, what is missing?
I made this mess from a distance, it's gonna take me next

It's the creature that's moving at a terrible speed
It's believing you'll wake me if I'm falling asleep
I have dreams where I'm grasping something out of my reach
I, I'm screaming for nothing, saying, "What am I doing now?"

Saying, "What am I doing now?"
Saying, "What am I doing now?"
What am I doing now?