Manifesto

I am a burden on everyone in my life
I don't deserve anything
I will be alone forever
I will sit and watch everyone I know grow and love
And get married while I sit alone and do nothing

I am not a good person
I am selfish
I ruin everything with my own selfishness
I will be alone when I die

I long for a deep connection that I will never have
I will never find love
I will always be in a constant cycle of feeling like this
I will always want more

I will never be satisfied for more than a few months at a time
I apologise to my friends
I apologise to everyone I know

I am selfish, angsty, and embarrassing
I have become someone I hate
I will never have a wife
I will never have children

I will visit my friends and meet their wives
And husbands and children and feel a deep, ugly jealousy
I will be alone
I will die alone

I will end up sad and alone
And the only person to blame will be me
I love you and I'm sorry for everything