Trying

I'm burning all the bridges that I passed
Wash off what I made up in my head
I'm breaking all the bottles that I left
Shows where I once went into descend

I'm not trying, I'm not trying anymore
'Cause I'm done lying to myself when I'm alone
I'm dusting off the memories that I'm done fighting
I'm not trying anymore

I accept the present in my hands
They're blistered and they're bleeding from my past
I'll patch it up and I'll leave it to dry
What time won't tell without saying goodbye tonight
I'm looking back but I'm done denying

I'm not trying, I'm not trying anymore
Cause I'm done lying to myself when I'm alone
I'm dusting off the memories that I'm done fighting
I'm not trying anymore

I give it up time after time
If I give it all, can I leave it behind?
I'll patch it up and I'll leave it to dry
What time won't tell without saying goodbye tonight
I'm looking back but I'm done denying

I'm not trying, I'm not trying anymore
'Cause I'm done lying to myself when I'm alone
I'm dusting off the memories that I'm done fighting
I'm not trying anymore

I give it up time after time
If I give it all, can I leave it behind?