Defect

Control is hard when it feels like I'm broken
It's hard to ignore when it's buried in my skin
Broken

Pull my self together

I'm fucking exhausted pretending my levels are fucking normal
Gritting my teeth just to get through the fucking day

Never again will I say it's copacetic to look
Myself in the eyes and say "I'm fine with dying"

You are not free, okay?
Don't you believe anybody who tries to convince you
That's bullshit
You don't have to go through your life
Believing that, okay?

Never again will I look down on myself for being who I am
Nevеr again will I look down on myself for being myself

(Control is hard when I feel knotted and broken)
(It's hard to ignore when it's buried in my skin)

Control is hard when I feel knotted and broken
It's hard to ignore when it's buried in-

It's hard to ignore when it's buried in-