Seeds In The River

Do my eyes deceive me?
Or has it merely been so many times from the sun
Living like we have impunity?
A desperate clutch of despair
Clinging to existence
And I don't know what waits for me there

One last deep inhale
Remove the dust under the stone
Are we dying again?

We're all seeds in the river
Washed away like we were never here
Maybe we'll all be delivered
But it's all I can do not to fight this feeling

I've known a lot of faces some are long gone
And new memories replace those who sang their swansong
A desperate clutch of despair
Clinging to existence
And I know just what waits for me here

If I could write a letter to my former self
It would just read, "Accept the hand you've been dealt
Resilience is your weapon and you'll find your better self
Inside the eyes of someone else"

We're all seeds in the river
Washed away like we were never here
Maybe we'll all be delivered
But it's all I can do not to fight this feeling

Eyes heavy but on we move blindly in the dark
I can't help but think of all the time I spent
Waiting for life to start
So focused on failing
I never took the time to savor
And all the things I took for granted
I wish that I could come back braver

One day you will look back and wish for a dull moment
A deeper connection, that's what keeps you tethered
Keep your head above the waves
Ride it out for as long as you can take
There's enough tragedy to pull you down
But we've all seen darker days

We're all seeds in the river
Washed away like we were never here
Maybe we'll all be delivered
But it's all I can do not to fight this feeling

We're all seeds in the river
Washed away like we were never here
Maybe we'll all be delivered
But it's all I can do not to fight this feeling