On Companionship

[Verse 1: Protagonist]

For every revelatory find and change

I have experienced in the last many days

There is an absence, a missing part

The other breathing; another human's beating heart

But moreover, it's the talking over hurdles

And the talking out of rashness, the challenges to sadness

That come from hearing a voice that's not yours

Deflect every leap of logic that comes oozing from your pores

[Build 1: Protagonist]

I'm realizing now: that ain't easy to find

Don't need a body to hold, I need eyes in the unknown

So pick it up fast, you've still got the time

And though you hate to admit it, you won’t make it alone

[Hook 1: Protagonist]

Said "I'm dying"

Heard "It's nothing but a chest cold"

Said "I'm nothing"

Heard "You're something to me"

Said "There's something I'm not comprehending--where's the ending?

Heard you skid half a mile down Donohoe street

That's where we left off

Abrupt, your expression I had not recalled

That was then, now we’ve ten days left

And I'm wondering if you're up and what you're up to

[Verse 2: Protagonist]

Creature of habit, I knew right where to find you

The old video store you worked at--must've been midnight

You were bunkered in the back

Midway through After Hours on a tube tv and VCR by battery

Teri Garr and Tommy Chong and 'Pay To Cum'

I stood behind you and I watched, you didn't notice I had come

To interrupt your silence, your final moments

Seemed the very last thing I should do, so I backpedaled away from you

[Build 2: Protagonist]

Looked happier there than I'd seen you in a while

After all, 'twas I, needed a guide in the unknown

So, genuine peace stems from being alone

That's when you spun me around and put a dent in my shoulder

[Hook 2: Protagonist, Violet]

How'd you find me? / Well, we run our sequence obviously

If that's true, why aren't you locked in your home?

I don't wanna die looking into your eyes

Figured so, that's why I thought I'd get going

You know, you're a curse

When I was seeking the best, it was like you actually wanted the worst

Goddammit, boy, you got it

You got those answers you were looking for, don't look so downtrodden

Fuck!

[Outro: Protagonist, Violet]

I tried anger, then I tried sadness

Then I tried rage, then I tried crying

I bet it thrilled you to abandon someone

I bet it cauterized quicker 'cause of just how hard I'd been trying

I could've used someone here for this world ending ordeal

I'm here right now / But you may as well not be

You can stay, if only for pity

So you hit stucco 'stead of slingin' through the streets