Won't Be Me

Worry more, love myself less
Press eject, forget the reset
Never hit the rewind, finish it
On the floor with my old VHS
Like a tape you can play me
Put me in when you’re lonely
Pressure building up ‘til my ears ring
I’ve still been reaching for the kitchen sink
That sinking feeling tied my hands and both my feet
Had to cut the rope, been forgetting how to breath
And now I’m giving up again
Another eighty milligrams
Between the medicine my therapist prescribes
The angst in my veins and the late night drives
No one seems to recognize the pain in my eyes
It’s like the chemicals that keep life stable gave up on me
It’s not my fault that I don’t understand what makes you happy
‘Cause how can I know fulfillment when I have never felt it
So don’t ask me what you need
‘Cause I know it won’t be me
Like a fish tank my head swims
Ibuprofen for the bed spins
Death is looking in with an evil grin
Grinning turning into grammacing
That evil smile got me feeling paranoid
Had me running scared ever since I was a boy
Now he’s coming out again
Yeah, that’s who I really am
Between the thoughts tucked up in my hollow brain
The ink in my skin and the scars on my leg
My life has been rearranged
My disposition changed
It’s like the chemicals that keep life stable gave up on me
It’s not my fault that I don’t understand what makes you happy
‘Cause how can I know fulfillment when I have never felt it
So don’t ask me what you need
‘Cause I know it won’t be me
Yeah, I know it won’t be me
It’s like the chemicals that keep life stable gave up on me
It’s not my fault that I don’t understand what makes you happy
‘Cause how can I know fulfillment when I have never felt it
So don’t ask me what you need
‘Cause I know it won’t be me