Apologies

When every thought says jump
When every thought says
Just give up
How else can I survive
Another day of being alive
Caffeine, nicotine, amphetamines
Running through my bloodstream
Trauma, drama, another vodka
Turn into a monster
Damaged baggage, turned savage
Do it every day, call it a habit
You want problems, I got em
Keep on sinking never hit bottom
All the love you tried to give to me
Was never enough, I’m sorry but
No amount of love could ever be
Ever enough, ever enough
I’m sorry, but
When every thought says run
When I can’t stand to be someone
Who’s done the things I’ve done
I’ll blame it all on being young
Give me caffeine, nicotine, amphetamines
Running through my bloodstream
Trauma, drama, another vodka
Turn into a monster
Damaged baggage, turned savage
Do it every day, call it a habit
You want problems, I got em
Keep on sinking never hit bottom
All the love you tried to give to me
Was never enough, I’m sorry but
No amount of love could ever be
Ever enough, ever enough
I’m sorry, but
There’s no saving me
I’m sorry, I’m all apologies
All the love you tried to give to me
Was never enough, never enough
I’m sorry, but
I’m holding anger like a hammer
Leaving all who love me fractured
I’m so ashamed I can’t erase it
Nothing you can do
Is ever gonna change it
(It’s never enough)
All the love you tried to give to me
Was never enough
No amount of love could ever be
Ever enough, ever enough
I’m sorry, but
There’s no saving me
I’m sorry, I’m all apologies
All the love you tried to give to me
Was never enough, never enough
I’m sorry, but