I'll Never Know

I remember the room with the TV on

And you sitting asleep before you were gone

We watched Thousands Cheer and lily Mars

Strike Up the Band and Babes in Arms

Brush light on the walls

Crash against the glass

And I'd watch your ash

Fall into your lap

I loved to watch the ghosts

Of cigarette smoke turning lithe and blue

And I loved the time we spent alone

That you never knew

Now I have a room with a TV on

I try to stay awake before I'm gone

Sometimes I don't but I can feel you there

When I'm losing track and I don't react

My mothers ghost

Of cigarette smoke curling calm and blue

And I love us being alone in the TV glow

When I think you don't know but you do