Catchtwentytwü

I'm always stuck in a rut

No longer interested in living with myself in this world of bullshit

Every day, every night

(Every day, every night)

All because I'm so lost and I'm unable to change

But; to this day I try

Swallow my spit

Swallow lie after lie

Eventually I'll put an end to myself

Because I want to fucking die

(Because I want to fucking die)

I say I'm fine but I'm pulling my teeth out

To taste my fucking blood as it endlessly bleeds out

I let it bleed so I can taste what is real

It's not a good habit but it's just the way that I feel

I can't help myself

The walls are closing in

And I want out

I want out now

I want out now

I should've listened when they said I was wrong

I should've but I didn't cause my hopes kept me strong

It's a fucked up way from the top to the bottom

And I'm barely coming down cause I refuse to be lied to

I refuse to be lied to

It's all a Paradox

And I'm slowly closing in to my end

Swallow my spit

Swallowing lie after lie

Day after day

I'm patiently waiting to die

Swallowing my spit

Swallowing lie after lie

Day after day

I'm patiently waiting to die

I EXIST UNTIL MY DEATHWISH IS GRANTED

(I exist)

THIS IS MY DEATHWISH