poison

I can't stand to look into my reflection anymore
'Cause I can't remember the night before (oh, I)
And I had a lot to give in life, but I fucked up every aspect
What did I expect? already living the outcome
Wake up with a heartache (knowing that I'm never done)
But I'm stuck, so I'm staring at the ceiling
Too tired, too scared of what I'm feeling
Can't call it addiction, if I can't even remember whatever it was that I was tripping off

Dreams telling me I'm six feet down
Choking in my vomit in my sleep, don't drow-ow-ow-own
Tired of the same old (same old) bullshit
Wish that you would love what I told you, guess

I'ma lose it in the end, still reaping what I sow and
Losing myself, lost sight of what's important
Needed something in my life to drown out all the noise and
Got a pretty pocket full of pills filled with poison
'Cause our eyes hit 'em like, "Don't run"
If I kill myself, I don't need no gun
What's a life with no drugs? (but it ain't no fun, yeah)
Don't run to the light, don't run

Looking at your face, know I can tell that you've been lying to me
Clenching my jaw 'til I'm breaking my teeth
Stuck in my room, always glued to my bed, know I'm tired of sleep
And it always goes on and on
You don't stop 'til you're told it's wrong
Done with your stupid games, I don't wanna play along
Got my heart inside your hands, there's blood up on my palms
I don't know what else to say but fuck it, I'm a-

I'ma lose it in the end, still reaping what I sow and
Losing myself, lost sight of what's important
Needed something in my life to drown out all the noise and
Got a pretty pocket full of pills filled with poison
'Cause our eyes hit 'em like, "Don't run"
If I kill myself, I don't need no gun
What's a life with no drugs? (but it ain't no fu-u-u-u-, yeah)
Don't run to the light, don't run