Happier?

I'm tied down
I'm all out of gas
I turned down the chance
Didn't want to fall out of bed
I'm holding back all the time
'Cause everything is overgrown and tired
I'm hanging by a thread on a vine
I'm asking for help from above
I'm trying to find that reason to love
'Cause I'm in debt
I'm rolling back
You make amends, you give what you get
I'm holding back all the signs
When I really should have called you that night
It eats me alive all the time
I remembered I had something to give
I'm trying to find that reason to live
It's all you know when our time is all gone
In all this time I hope you find
A way to be happier, happier
Through all the lights, the darkest nights
I wish you were happier, happier
And all you know, this world's so cold
So won't you pretend like we could never wonder why
In all this time, I hope you find
A way to be happier, happier
Turning my back, turning my back again
Never look back, never look back again
I'm taking my time
I'm learning to let you in
But I needed you to guide me out from here
And I know you see right through me
We all went blind
The hand goes backwards
I count the time
In all this time, I hope you find
A way to be happier, happier
Through all the lights, the darkest nights
I wish you were happier, happier
And all you know, this world's so cold
So won't you pretend like we could never wonder why
In all this time, I hope you find
A way to be happier, happier