Sabrina

[Verse]

I woke up from a deep sleep

I must've had a nightmare

But I really cannot remember

My heart was beating up out of my chest, and I was cold

I must've left the window cracked

Twenty-fifth of September and the winter's coming back

The house is unusually quiet, and I'm wondering where Sabrina's at

By this time, at eight o'clock

She would've been pullin' on my blanket

Saying, Daddy, I want some cereal"

Wondering where her mommy's at

My door's wide open

I can hear the breeze hit the curtains

Wind chime hangin' on the front porch singing

Sabrina must be asleep

I pull back the sheet

Get up and walk toward her room in the hall

Not a peep, not a sound, not at all

The anxiety of a father is settin' in

As I turn the corner to her room

Her Mickey Mouse blanket's on the floor, she isn't in the bed

I take a deep breath, put my hand on my head

Relax, it's a game of hide and seek

She's in the closet, I know it, I open the door, "Gotcha!"

She isn't there

The faint sound of the television from downstairs is playing some cartoons

She's on the couch, of course, how did I oversleep?

"Baby girl, why didn't you come wake up daddy?"

Not a response

Fear turned to frustration

"Sabrina, answer me"

"'Brina, this isn't funny"

I ran to the couch, she's not there

I'm startin' to panic and I'm lookin' up everywhere

Guest rooms, bathrooms, cabinets

Under the tables, the attic

Wait a minute, oh God no

I know she wouldn't go outside

We live so far back in the woods, she wouldn't dare

It's too scary for a little girl just to go bye-bye

I'm trying to escape my mind's eye

But my imagination is runnin' wild

At this point, I'm talkin' to God, "Please Lord

Please I'm scared, help me find my child"

I run to the basement

(Sabrina!) Sweat beads on my hands

Pacin', thinkin'

Pacin', thinkin', turn my face in

The screen door to the backyard's ajar

I run to the swing set

Swing set? No

Sandbox? No

God dammit, Sabrina, where'd you go? (Where you at, baby?)

There's a trail to a pond that I take her to

Every day, maybe she's down there

I run down the trail, it's about a hundred yards

We usually hang out on the pier

And as I get close in

Everything moves slow motion

Her little white shirt on the surface of the water

She was there – lifeless, floating

(Oh my God!)

The pain I can't explain, I couldn't say anything

I ran to the water

God, is this really my daughter?

I picked her up, she was heavy

I held her tight in my arms, I took her out of the pond

I laid her down in the grass, I couldn't breathe, I gasped

Givin' her CPR, she wasn't respondin' to it

My phone in my pocket, my hands are shakin', my vision's blurry

9-1-1'll send an ambulance in a hurry

But it was too late, no tellin' how long she wasn't breathing

Her skin was the color purple, her lips were ice cold

She must have fell off the pier reachin' for her teddy bear

She tried to get out, she got wood under her nails

God, what did You do to us? What have You done?

I say my prayers at night, haven't I been a good son?

What did You do to my baby? She's mine, now give her back

You don't deserve her if You let her die like that!