Apology Letter

I was wrong
I knew right away but I played it cool
That trick never works
Took too long
And then I got mad because you got mad
Another one of my delightful quirks
What a jerk

If I were to smile at you
Would you smile at me?

It's so clear
What I'm trying to say, but right on cue
It doesn't ever come that easily
'Cause the words
Derail on the way from me to you
It seems to happen with some frequency
Depressingly

If I were to smile at you
Would you smile at me?

And I can't bear to look to see
If this apology letter's returned unread