Withdrawals

[Intro: Matthew Cullen]

(I can't keep going through withdrawals)

(You understand it isn't all my fault)

(I promised you that I would change)

[Verse 1: Matthew Cullen]

Ion't feel how you felt when you looked at me

As a child, to see things we shouldn't see

For the fact of the matter, nobody needs

Actually, after the passing, I couldn't grieve

Every time that you'd smile, I couldn't sleep

I knew what you were hidin' up underneath

And if it's a ride or die with us, somehow we split up in the distance

And I'm wonderin' what it means

I was only a baby and heard the violence

Twenty-five years later, disturbed by silence

Whеn I learned about prison, and learnеd about pistols

A decade before I had a driver's license

Thank God to my mom when she heard the sirens

Thank God that we're all still alive, and I could tell you that I miss you

But I'm at the point you're at peace in the way that I am

[Chorus: Matthew Cullen]

I can't keep going through withdrawals

You understand it isn't all my fault

I promised you that I would change

I heard you tell me the same

You let the feeling fade away

I thought tomorrow might've gave us a new day

You promised me that you would change

But you don't, and it won't 'til were both in the grave

And you felt the same, and you felt the same

[Verse 2: Ekoh]

Yeah, I wish that I didn't think like this

Every time that I close my eyelids

All I see is that note you wrote

When you said goodbye, and I just hear violence

Like, why in the fuck was I not enough?

You traded it all for another drug

I needed my mom, you needed relief

And I had to call the police

Lookin' at the kid who didn't really know

Any other way to deal with the feelings ahead

Always so mad at myself and the way

I keep making my present a part of the past

I hated you for the way that you threw us away

And when you said you would change

But then I got hooked on them same pills and now I'm sayin'

[Chorus: Matthew Cullen]

I can't keep going through withdrawals

You understand it isn't all my fault

I promised you that I would change

I heard you tell me the same

You let the feeling fade away

I thought tomorrow might've gave us a new day

You promised me that you would change

But you don't, and it won't 'til were both in the grave

And you felt the same, and you felt the same

[Bridge: Matthew Cullen]

If time heals all, why do I still bleed?

You watched me fall, but I can't keep

[Chorus: Matthew Cullen]

Going through withdrawals

You understand it isn't all my fault

I promised you that I would change

I heard you tell me the same (Tell me the same)

You let the feeling fade away

I thought tomorrow might've gave us a new day

You promised me that you would change

But you don't, and it won't 'til were both in the grave

And you felt the same, and you felt the same

[Outro: Matthew Cullen]

(If time heals all, why do I still bleed?)

(You understand it isn't all my fault)

(I promised you that I would change)

(You watched me fall, but I can't keep)