I'M SORRY

Remember the first time that I saw you?
Staying at a hostel playing a contra show
You almost nearly left with my brother
Looking for Mary Jane but we joked that it wasn't so
Remember the first song that I sent you?
The day after we met for island fires and family
I hand-bound that book that I showed you
I'll send it if I find it
Please don't send it back to me

I'm sorry that I let you down
I'm sorry that I couldn't hold it together
I'm sorry that I let you go
It feels like such a shame
After all that we weathered
I'm sorry that I let you down
But you said it yourself
We just don't kiss the same ways
I'm sorry that I let you go
I'm hoping time can heal
Everything that it hasn't changed

I started putting stuff into boxes
I stopped because in trying
It made me want to throw up
I've realised in the ways that you left here
You planned on coming back
No matter what the cost was
I don't think in the end it made a difference
There's times I got distracted
Body over the soul
A woman makes a home and that's the difference
I'm crying on a couch feeling truly alone

I'm sorry that I let you down
I'm sorry that I couldn't hold it together
I'm sorry that I let you go
It feels like such a shame
After all that we weathered
I'm sorry that I let you down
But you said it yourself
We just don't kiss the same ways
I'm sorry that I let you go
I'm hoping time can heal
Everything that it hasn't changed

I hope one day I'll see you
When the border wars are over
Can we get some form of closure?
How we've come undone
I'm guarded in what I say and I do
But there's no doubt I love or I'm missing you
We were best friends you know that it was true
Couldn't sleep at night
Knowing it wasn't right

I'm sorry that I let you down
I'm sorry that I couldn't hold it together
I'm sorry that I let you go
It feels like such a shame
After all that we weathered
I'm sorry that I let you down
You said it yourself
We just don't kiss the same ways
And I'm sorry that I let you go
I'm hoping time can heal
Everything that it hasn't changed
I'm sorry that I let you down

I'm sorry that I let you
So so sorry I let you
I'm sorry that I let you down