The Pool

The room's new carpet, and the walls' apartment hue add to the visitor feeling I'm used to The morning window's freezing from outside. It wakes me up Wasting air to the falling light Angel, you picked me up but the devil wants me too I never gave a fuck, so why the fuck should you? I awoke in a fog with an ache, at a loss You were faking through relationships to rot This is not my home anymore All my accomplishments are joined with asterisks So in a few years they're meaningless Darling, I can't erase it, but could you forget my lies? We were the slut and the self-made mess Please know I tried Smile, smile Smile for all I can't smile anymore I skip rocks to mock the clashing tide It's encroaching on our side The wave parade is drowning me out too It breaks me up Wish I could have done more to you They used your body up, leaving your guts dry But you never gave a fuck, so why the fuck should I? Now the face escapes me, but the shame's forever When I get the nerve to test the death for life renewal You'll find me lying at the bottom of the pool And when I'm face down in that water, don't pick me up Cause I'll be face down in that water next to you It will be better underwater Don't pick me up