The Pool

The room's new carpet, and the walls' apartment hue add to the visitor feeling I'm used to

The morning window's freezing from outside. It wakes me up

Wasting air to the falling light

Angel, you picked me up but the devil wants me too

I never gave a fuck, so why the fuck should you?

I awoke in a fog with an ache, at a loss

You were faking through relationships to rot

This is not my home anymore

All my accomplishments are joined with asterisks

So in a few years they're meaningless

Darling, I can't erase it, but could you forget my lies?

We were the slut and the self-made mess

Please know I tried

Smile, smile

Smile for all

I can't smile anymore

I skip rocks to mock the clashing tide

It's encroaching on our side

The wave parade is drowning me out too

It breaks me up

Wish I could have done more to you

They used your body up, leaving your guts dry

But you never gave a fuck, so why the fuck should I?

Now the face escapes me, but the shame's forever

When I get the nerve to test the death for life renewal

You'll find me lying at the bottom of the pool

And when I'm face down in that water, don't pick me up

Cause I'll be face down in that water next to you

It will be better underwater

Don't pick me up