Ruin It

[Verse 1] I've waited a long time for this life Just to ruin it, so please don't ruin this for me Yes, I understand this lie, hell, I crossed those T's I scratched out all these eyes myself last night When I promised not to fight [Verse 2] So this is what I'm looking like these days I'm all grown up, so full of hate But I don't want to let go of my rage 'Cause it's the salt that brings the taste So where am I if you decide that I'm not right? [Chorus] 'Cause I might break and I might bend Your heartstrings out of tune again And I might try to apologize On a good day, on my best day, if you stick around [Verse 3] Did I stay inside to sterilize this knife? Am I being too careful, does this seem right? Did I open up the shades to expose the sun in rays? To show what's burned there inside Yeah, take a close look, hold me right up to the light [Chorus] 'Cause I might break and I might bend Your heartstrings out of tune again And I might try to apologize On a good day, on my best day, if you stick around [Bridge] I've waited for so long I've waited for so long Spread me out, rake me in This coarse and rocky field will camouflage my skin [Chorus] And I might break and I might bend Your heartstrings out of tune again And I might try to apologize On a good day, on my best day, if you stick around