Can't Stand the Mourning

I know death and taxes, they can't be outrun I thought I'd have more time before the race begun Lost my father at twenty, and I lost you last week How can I cope? I still haven't found me I've tried different religions and psychic hotlines Must be some way to hear your laugh one more time So I self medicate to stay comfortably numb Knowing sooner or later, yeah, my day will come I need chemicals to sleep to see you in my dreams If I take enough, maybe one day we'll speak Oh, when I wake back up, you won't be there to talk These photos and voicemails of you aren't enough Let me close my eyes 'cause I can't stand the mourning Let me close my eyes 'cause I can't stand the mourning All my friends and my therapist tell me, "Stay strong" But I haven't hit the gym in well, God knows how long All my smiles and my tattoos, they're doing their part They're all putting me in overtime to cover my scars Can't pretend that it's still the best day of my life When I tell you the truth, you say it's all a lie So I'll pour one out and pour my heart into a drink 'Cause I'd rather pay for whiskey than a mid-level shrink I need chemicals to sleep so I'll see you in my dreams If I take enough, maybe one day we'll speak Oh, when I wake back up, you won't be there to talk These photos and voicemails of you aren't enough Let me close my eyes 'cause I can't stand the mourning Let me close my eyes 'cause I can't stand the mourning