What Am I Doing to Me?

I try to go to bed early just about every night Wanna stop my head from spinning but it's too big a fight I give myself up for love and I don't even try Tell myself when it's dark just to run and hide Count the stairs to my door 'til I am safe inside I do everything I can sometimes not to cry I hate that I lose my shit And I just don't know why I hate that I can't even read my own mind I've been on fire I can't help myself Runnin' on wires Balancin' over heads Anxious dreams pushin' me out of sleep What am I doin' to me? What am I doin' to me? Ooh What am I doin'? What am I doin'? What am I doin' to me? What am I doin'? What am I doin'? What am I doin' to me? Wake up shaking, I'm panicked, sleepin' all the time Cracked my phone and I spilled another glass of wine My friends keep tellin' me I should take my own advice But I made my bed, so that's where I gotta lie I've been on fire I can't help myself Runnin' on wires Balancin' over head Anxious dreams pushin' me out of sleep What am I doin' to me? What am I doing to me? Ooh What am I doin'? What am I doin'? What am I doin' to me? What am I doin'? What am I doin'? What am I doin' to me? Try too hard Don't try enough I don't know why I can't get myself to give a fuck I'm burnin' down No, I can't breathe Can someone tell me What am I doin' to me? Ooh What am I doin'? What am I doin'? What am I doin' to me? I've been on fire I can't help myself What am I doin'? What am I doin'? What am I doin' to me?