Full Bloom

In the back of my father’s Chevy I waited for cop lights to shine I was sure that they would He never made it mine Like he promised he would He never made it mine Now I’m running reds Like I’ve got some place to be The Palisades will wait for me I never thought I would come And now I’ll never leave I never thought I would come And all the while I thought that I would never find another place to need You took me in the back room I waited to feel anything The city lights in full bloom I’m heavy with the weight of things Took myself to the coast to breath The ocean air, to taste infinity I didn’t want to escape I wanted to believe I wasn’t trying to run That was a first for me Home’s a word I’ve been using lately To describe so many different things Of which my body’s not one Keep wanting to believe I can make myself numb To insecurity But barely understanding Is the only way that I have learned to see You took me in the back room I waited to feel anything The city lights in full bloom I’m heavy with the weight of things You took me in the back room I waited to feel anything The city lights in full bloom I’m heavy with the weight of things Mother, brother, father Have you ever seen the waves?