Full Bloom

In the back of my father’s Chevy

I waited for cop lights to shine

I was sure that they would

He never made it mine

Like he promised he would

He never made it mine

Now I’m running reds

Like I’ve got some place to be

The Palisades will wait for me

I never thought I would come

And now I’ll never leave

I never thought I would come

And all the while I thought that

I would never find another place to need

You took me in the back room

I waited to feel anything

The city lights in full bloom

I’m heavy with the weight of things

Took myself to the coast to breath

The ocean air, to taste infinity

I didn’t want to escape

I wanted to believe

I wasn’t trying to run

That was a first for me

Home’s a word I’ve been using lately

To describe so many different things

Of which my body’s not one

Keep wanting to believe

I can make myself numb

To insecurity

But barely understanding

Is the only way that I have learned to see

You took me in the back room

I waited to feel anything

The city lights in full bloom

I’m heavy with the weight of things

You took me in the back room

I waited to feel anything

The city lights in full bloom

I’m heavy with the weight of things

Mother, brother, father

Have you ever seen the waves?