funeral

Show up or don’t I’m gonna set your plate and I won’t eat a bite No I’ll starve In the dark and alone Dreaming of sharing your breath Blowing parliament smoke at the floor You took a flight to the ocean And I took a drive with him but it wasn’t right I tried to hide in the open But you declined To even try to find me Now in everything And everyone I scream your name And imagine what we could have been Now it’s been a year And I’ve had enough If I see you again I’m handing you Yellow chrysanthemums And rosaries, I want you home with me I miss you totally I cry in my tweety pajama pants and Honestly, I know you’re haunting me I thought you wanted me, I hope I see you at my funeral Pacing around Tryna forget your cigarette kisses on the crown of my head I tried to stay down but I felt abandoned, beads on your hand in my nightmares Is it my fault that I wanna move on? When you told me that I’m not what you want, And you came back only for a minute With a burnt out vape and a dumb explanation. And I do coke anymore If I did it would just take me back and remind me. Of the love that I couldn’t give you But demanded you give me and now I’m stuck in everything And everyone I scream your name And imagine what we could have been Now it’s been a year And I’ve had enough If I see you again I’m handing you Yellow chrysanthemums And rosaries, I want you home with me I miss you totally I cry in my tweety pajama pants and Honestly, I know you’re haunting me I thought you wanted me, I hope I see you at my funeral